Tuesday, April 26, 2011

STRESS FRACTURE

Whoooo saaaa!


I have been to the Emergency Room twice in two years for stress. The first time I was dizzy, and kept falling out. I couldn't sit up, I couldn't stand, I almost passed out in the choir stand, in the middle of service, in the middle of singing. Nothing physiologically wrong, just stress. Next time, I could have sworn I was having a heart attack. I couldn't breathe, my left side was tingling, my hands were numb, got to the hospital, did an EKG, a CAT Scan, all of that good stuff.

I have Hashimoto's thyroiditis and kept wondering if my trips were akin to my thyroid issues. They were not. All those tests came back fine. Levels fine. Thyroid functioning: fine.

Now, I'm on the brink again. Tonight, I'm sick to my stomach. Was watching Skip Gates, Black in Latin America and couldn't see. My left eye had a blind spot that looked like light was blinding me. I couldn't see my son's face to put medicine on his scar. I couldn't see names or information on the TV, and I thought it was due to the lighting in my place... I turned off the lights, and was seeing the spot no matter where I looked. It came out of no where. It went away maybe 20-25 minutes after it started.

THEN, maybe 5 minutes later, a headache for the ages emerged.

I used to have migraines, that made me hyper sensitive to sounds and light. This is now what this feels like. I feel sick to my stomach, was feeling like i was hallucinating, if i get up from this spot, i am going to puke all over the place. I know, I know, crude, but I feel horrible. My brain feels like it's getting squeezed by a vice grip, but it's swimming like little guppies lost in a monsoon. I am itching all over. OMG, I feel horrible. I wish I could really share what I'm feeling cause it's horrible. Tryna figure out if I'm needing to go the ER or not.

My BP has been high, reasonably so given my current stressful circumstances, so it could be high blood pressure. I dont know... Maybe I should get off the innanet and call someone. Sounds like a good idea. But, stress is just fuggin me up!


I think I might need a vacation, like something serious!

Monday, April 25, 2011

Rockin witta TWA!!!

Tonight, my girl from High School hit me up asking for styles. I AM NOT ALONE IN TRYNA FIGURE OUT WHAT TO DO WITH MY CURLS!!! YAY! So, since she's a little less time in than I am, here are some styles for her and the WORLD of sista sorors rockin their TWAs with mad attitude.

Enjoy, and spread the wealth. Each one teach one!















i love her! who is she, and where is she on twitter?




Saturday, April 23, 2011

Natural Hair and Tats Pt II




when i saw this, i didn't even realize it was the same artist that did the piece above... what i would love to have that artist in my skin. wow. this is the inspiration that i sooo needed.



now, i'm just needing to find this artist...


and i did!!!!!!! I DID I DID I DID!!! I TINK I FOUND THE PUDDY TAT!

Now, just need pricing, and details about location, and i'm there in MAY!!!!!!!!! whoooo hoooo!!!!


and more works that make me drool:









this went from a gathering of various sources to spotlighting Miya Bailey! I will be contacting him tomorrow to get an appointment for Houston!

Thursday, April 21, 2011

Fiend

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that ish is like a drug. you give it up. you walk away. it calls your name. like el in switch, you don't know which way to go. you want it so bad. you yearn for it. feinding like jodeci. you just don't know what this addiction is doing to me! jesus lord, free my veins. get these thoughts off my brain! i just can't take the thought of it! Jesus, Lord, have mercy, I WANT SOME *&$#!!!

it's on my mind, all day. all the time. Jamie Foxx 3 letter word... sometimes i hear it calling me... i'm caught up like usher... got me feelin it. caught up. i don't know what it is, but it seems it's got me twisted. When I can, I can't get it when I want it. When I get it, I can never get enough of the *#@.

Creepin and crawlin, goin all around in my head, my mind is tossin and turning, tryna fight this yearning because i want this shit. i need this shit. i need to have that dick! Why? why? Because Michael said it's human nature. Aint nothing i found greater.

I keep callin on you Lord because I'm on some next level ish with this MAN. I need that ish, that creamy, that good, that gushy stuff! I need a good f48k. Like heroin or cocain, whatever that white shit that people get addicted to, it aint got nothing on these white lines, I PROMISE YOU!

Crack is wack and dick is fuckin fantastic. Ion wanna leave, but I gotta go right now. I gotta get me some of that shit. I told you, sometimes I hear it callin me. On my mind, all the time. Stronger than any drug... I'm nervous, and tremblin, needing for you to cum in. I can't keep still! Squirming and clenching. Trying to keep this feeling under control. But I might have to let it go... looks like another pussy TKO.








*totally off topic, but thanks to Saddi Khali for the pic. Check him out on FB.

Random Post of the moment

Soooo............. As things are going.... as they always do... continuously, and steadily, I am of course set adrift on memories bliss of love... No. But, I am swept up in the pulse of life... My life seems to have an irregular heartbeat.

Anyway... I know this is random postings, but let me try to stick to a train of thought here. If you have been following me on twitter and by chance on FB too, you might have seen that I recently quit my career in Special Education, and had planned on moving. I was under the auspice that I would be helping my dad take care of my grandmother and building a house, and other adult like things. WELL! That has seemed to go straight to hell in a hand basket doused in gasoline and laced with explosives. And, I am currently unemployed as of the last day of school. OH JOY!!!

With a pocket full of skills I've been sitting my big happy ass on, I guess my plan of action to sustain life as I know it is going to be to hustle. *cue*



Mamma just bought some new shoes, baby need Easter ish and healthcare, and we gotta live somewhere. SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO. I'm going to try something very ANTI what I have ever known: sustaining life via solely entrepreneurship. Your girl gotta mouth, it needs to get fed, so open that mouth and sing. I have hands that make magic in the kitchen, use em to whip up plates and desserts and sell that ish until I can do what I wanna. Have a mind's eye, creative in a lot of ways. I have this knack for pictures, and I should figure out something to do with that. Let's not forget written expression. And my little mix tapes...





*Le sigh*, seems to be the phrase of the day. I have some decisions to make because it's just so comfortable working 7-430, or 5, or 6, or 615 and making a steady check. I don't know what the hustlin life is. I guess I'm bout to find out.






Innocent Teacher turned

HUSTLA!!!!!!!

Wednesday, April 20, 2011

My delicious dinner creations

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Golden Girly Curly Queen


Moisturized with water, honey, olive oil, rose water and glycerin. Topped off with Lemongrass that smelled soooooooooooooooooo heavenly. 



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Tuesday, April 19, 2011

Putting myself out there...

Back in the day, Mamma said I couldn't hold a tune in a bucket.


i apologize 2nd attempt | Upload Music


rolling in the deep | Upload Music

I'M SOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO SUPER CORNY! I AM A REAL L7 Y'ALL JUST DON'T KNOW!

love letters | Online Karaoke

Breakfast for Dinner

This was dinner last night... OH SO GOOD!!!


caramel french toast with chocolate pecan sauce, eggs, cheese grits with bacon, and sauteed spinach with fresh fruit.








Dinner: Caramel French Toast w/ chocolate pecan sauce & Strawberries

Homemade of course!!
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Thursday, April 14, 2011

FROME2YOU COME TO HOU







This is DOPE!

Random ramblings and late night written rage

Daddy said the trial has been pushed back to july or maybe june. Whenever it begins, it won't be a moment too soon. The first chance I get to see that monsters face, I can't garauntee that motherless child will be safe. A heartless evil bastard, that son of a bitch, god dammit! You took his life, ad now he's gone, my big brother aint never comin home! I hope you die, and burn in hell. Better yet, I hope god reaches yo sorry mother fuckin ass in jail. I miss my Bubba so, its unreal! This is a pain you will never understand or feel! So June, July, the 12th day to Never. I'll be there to look you in the eye you murderous devil!! I don't hate people, but you closest to it.

You robbed me my big brother, man fuck it. Judge, lock his ass up and throw away the key. Prison inmates, why don't you pray for he. The best revenge for that sorry sap sucker is Gods relentless hand. Gods eye for eye is much stronger than man's. Much stronger than this woman here, distraught, because when she lost her Bubba, her entire understanding of the world was rocked. Shaken and crumbled, damn near destroyed, an earthquake hit because of the murderer's choice. I can't say anymore because I don't want to think any more, but listen up you heartless bitch ass nigga, if I could, I'd ask God to pull the trigger. POW!



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